KP/Kip/Kippy/Kipster/whatever. play with my nickname. 21. NC. (gender)queer. they/their/theirs pronouns please. Sociology. Hufflepug.
I spend too much time on the internet and my favorite number is 19.
honesty room
- I don’t reblog some pictures if I don’t like someone’s fingernails
- I’m very self conscious about the way I construct sentences in text because I’ve had at least two people talk about the way they feel the need to rephrase things when I’ve been able to understand exactly what they say. By this I mean that I assumed that because I understood what they were saying in the way they said it and that they felt the need to say it in a different way that the way I speak/talk/type may be hard for others to understand. EDIT: that sounds like a huge leap but when these people have said “that is phrased weird” it looked like the way I would have phrased something.
- I like being right about everything but try to apologize or correct myself when I am wrong.
- I make way too many assumptions about everything.
- I feel like people mean way more to me than I mean to them.
- The thing I want the most out of life is a physical connection with others. Breathing against someone else’s back in class on Thursday was the most pleasing part of my whole day. Being able to physically touch someone else in a completely human way was so simple and fulfilling. I don’t get enough human touch in my life.
- I take a lot of pictures of myself and my friends poke fun at me for it sometimes. I want to document my life in a small way so that I can look back and remember how I looked at different moments.
- I feel like I don’t have the spoons for classes and the organizations/groups I am a part of this semester.
- I can still feel reverberations of my cry from last night. A good cry now and then is good for me but I feel like I can’t cry unless I have a “good enough” reason and those don’t come by often enough for when I feel the desire to cry.
- I’m very easy to take advantage of.
- I put others before myself and this seems to be a characteristic of ISFJs - not taking care of myself when I need to and putting the ideals and lives of others before my own.
- I sleep the best by myself but even then, I don’t sleep well.
- I’m getting better about not expressing my hurt or anger at someone directly while I’m in the middle of feeling hurt or angry.
- I don’t trust the people I feel I should trust as much as I should trust them (my close friends). This seems to be a protective measure I take against being hurt but also hurts my friendships with them because I don’t give them enough credit where it matters.
- I’m totally full of myself with regards to my eyes even though I know I don’t have any control or influence over what they look like (any compliments I get on them should be directed to my parents and my biology, not me as a person as it isn’t like I colored them that way).
- I am notoriously indecisive.
- I’m bad at self control and sticking to goals I set for myself (don’t pick at your skin, exercise every day, train for the half marathon in 19 days, do all of your schoolwork)
- I don’t want to admit to myself that I’m not in a good place to be in a romantic relationship with anyone because I need to put more energy into helping myself (mentally, emotionally, physically, academically).
- I am mostly content with spending time with myself but when I do crave the company of others, I need to remember to open up more and enjoy being with those I’m with.
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vain, tool, bad, negativity, weakness, shortcoming, ass, honesty room, trying to be humble by talking about the bad parts of me?, dear self, keep this in mind, personal, I'll probably add more to this list as more things occur to me, self care, .
